Author: Sue Ahrendt

A Little Slice of Forever——an assignment from Shelby’s college art class

gangstas6 hours seems like forever. It sure did for me as I trudged into Dittman on Tuesday morning with my crinkly bag lunch and shrugged into an equally crinkly white suit that didn’t quite feel like it was made to be worn by a live person. As we gathered the last painting supplies and perched ourselves on our stools, prepared for 6 hours in that 4×4 square, I wondered how on earth I was going to survive the day.

After 45 minutes, however, people started venturing by the gallery. We reached out to them—offering fresh-poured cups of paint to use to cover our white canvas suits and a few came in and added splotches of color or words or stories or names or insults or lyrics or signatures. More and more people came, and we were eventually no longer timid in our project advertisement—hollering down the hall to attract bypassing strangers.

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During the time when our squares weren’t flocked with painters, I could look out over the 31 other wooden platforms and just watch what other people’s lives were occupied by—paper airplaning and poetry and clay and books and paper cranes—a pinkish sea full of 4×4 squares blooming with creation.

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It made me realize that everyone is living in his or her little slice of forever. I don’t normally think about how segregated that can be, because I’m too busy bustling about in my own world but when everyone’s little forevers are all gridded out in a single room, I can truly analyze individual tendencies and what makes each person tick.

What if my purpose is actually trying to bring everyone else’s stories together? Mash them all together into one crazy, colorful painted suit; parallel the guy who’s son had just died with the budding rapper who was really struggling to get his name out there; the kind voice of the pastor with the girl who didn’t believe in using brushes and instead finger-painted swirling stripes across my stomach.

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No matter how different each person’s style was, their lives sort of blended into this crazy streaking picture that somehow fit together, with newcomers filling in the holes that others may have missed.

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Life really sparkles when I can share my little bit of forever with people; give them a paintbrush and let them into my square. Each individual is just burning to tell his or her story and I’m actually genuinely interested, which kind of took me by surprise. I’m often moving so fast I forget to take the time to actually ask people about their lives.  But the experience left this great feeling all bubbled up inside of me, and I’m going to try and keep it there…forever.

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Tribute to Dell

This month, we were saddened due to the passing of a Tuscarora and Boundary Waters friend.  His son David took the time to email us the following note –

“I wanted to let you know that my dad, Dell, passed away on November 8th after a very brief battle with pancreatic cancer.  As we’ve been putting together a slide show for next weekend’s service, I keep finding photo after photo of our many family trips to Tuscarora.  My dad absolutely loved it in the Boundary Waters and in particular the connection to Tuscarora Lodge.  Some of the best memories my kids will have of their grandpa happened there: playing Kings in the Corner and Hand and Foot on rainy days, swimming off the dock, rock hopping down the Cross River, learning from Grandpa how to drive the motor boat and bait a hook, blue berry picking, and making the Missing Link-Snipe-Cross Bay-Ham Lake-Cross River circle for a lunch adventure.  These trips are part of family lore and make me smile every time I think of them.

I was doing a Google search for my dad’s obituary, and the first hit I saw when I entered his name was for a 2008 Tuscarora blog entry that he sent, and you posted, about waking up to the morning mist on Round Lake with the moon reflecting in the water.  The timing of seeing this entry and photo was perfect.  It was a clear reminder of his love of nature and his ability to see wonder and beauty in everything and everyone.  Thank you for helping us to create family memories that matter.  We look forward to seeing you on our next visit.”

Dell’s blog post can be found here – http://www.tuscaroracanoe.com/morning-moon-by-dell-boccignone/

 

Dell was a great man and his wife Judy a wonderful person. The world is saddened by his passing but better off because he was in it.

I liked Dell….

-Andy

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Cheers to the Summer Staff 2013

IMG_1798Here we are—Tuscarora Staff 2013.  It sure has been a good ride so far…..and we are really grateful.  Let me introduce each of them to you.

IMG_1733Kyle came out of his shell during Christmas (in July) when he stepped in as Santa Claus.   I’ve never actually met Santa, but I’ll bet he’s quiet like Kyle for most of the year except when he’s called on to do his part.   We’ve learned to watch Kyle closely at meals, as in—just this noon,  Caleb remarked “Nothing beats Indiana corn” to which Kyle’s eyes shoot a quick glance response “that’s a bunch of malarky…..nothing matches Iowa corn”, then he quickly looked away…without actually speaking one word.  Read it right though, and he’ll always admit it.  When I rode with Kyle on his last “training” run across Sag, it was pretty windy, yet the towboat was tilted just right and never bounced.  I had to ask him exactly how he managed that  perfection…and he just shrugged and mumbled  “yeah, it’s a little tricky sometimes.”  That’s the kind of humble guy he is.  But don’t ask him to eat bass, he’s polite, yet not one bit flexible about THAT.

IMG_1544Amy paddled through a crazy lot of lakes on her days off.  As in; Tuscarora to Little Sag to Gabimichigami to Bingshick, to Paulson to Seagull (that last portage is over 500 rods)—on a DAY TRIP.   And if you’re lucky enough to have been routed by her, it’s likely that she’s been to every single lake—sometime this summer.  All of them.  She was our food packer, all area support person this summer (in more ways than one), and she has us all nodding and smiling at the dinner stories, and saying  hmmmmm and….ohhhhhhhhh…..—just like she does.

IMG_1549Caleb likes to work.  I could just leave it at that, but consider it for a minute.   How lucky is it that we have an outfitting manager who just plain likes to work?  He’s sharp, he’s competent, he’s efficient, and he works. Early in the morning, he works.  At the end of the day, he keeps working.   He’s beginning to build a reputation on the Gunflint Trail.  Why?  Because he works.

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Rachel has recently fallen in love with Lucy—who is so new to the Tuscarora staff that she didn’t even make the group picture.  But little Lucy has stolen all of our hearts (well, except for Denali’s, but she’s working on it).   Rachel is  teaching Lucy about everything.  Because—basically Rachel is our manager and  knows about everything.

IMG_1578                                                                               If you see a young version of ‘Cher’ roaming the Tuscarora grounds, you know you’ve just met Chelsea.  You might also find her chasing wolves through the woods, or sprinting into the crew cabin in order to write down some song lyrics or recipes for exotic sauces and veggies. When one of the staff members is stuck at Trail Center without a ride, I can tell you that Chelsea is the one who will find a way to pick him up.   She’s all about taking care of people.

IMG_1556Elizabeth is a rockstar.  People keep commenting on how immaculate it all is—we owe that to Elizabeth and her staff. During  her days ON Elizabeth is a cheerful housekeeper—, on her days OFF Elizabeth is a cheerful paddler…. she conquers amazing distances with the same zesty spunk.

IMG_1603When Claire works late she doesn’t actually need a walkie talkie.  When I turn to call her, she is right there.  When I get ready to ask her to do something, she’s already doing it.  So I quit asking, and just relish the fudge she makes on her time off.  It’s unbelievably incredible.   Unbelievably.  And don’t get me started on the birthday cakes with peanut butter fudge frosting.  Claire also likes to take leisurely swims around the entire circumference of Round Lake.

IMG_1534Mikey’s name is really Caleb, but we already had one, and that is too many Calebs.   Don’t you think he looks a little like Michael Phelps?  Mikey’s cheerful and efficient about whatever he does.  When he leaves the office, we look at each other and say….”he’s a really good kid.”  It happens over and over again.  Because the truth is….he’s a really good kid.

IMG_1574Mitch has perfected the art of turning-your-mango-insdie-out-to-make-an-easy-to-eat-piece-of-fruit.  It took a few tries, but pretty soon shwwwwoop, schwiiippp, shwaaam!   One time Mitch was on duty, and he picked up a live bat with a garbage bag.  Casually, with a shrug and an apology.   He picked up a bat, did you catch that?   The rodent.  They do fly around here at night, to catch mosquitoes…….which is a noble thing for any animal, but this particular one was dying, and Mitch stepped in and  picked it up to take it out of the guests’ way.   In my book, he gets a permanent gold star.  Forever.

IMG_1570Shelby is the cheerful floater.  You might find her in the dining hall cooking or serving, or working in the store or answering phones in the office, or loading canoes in the outfitting yard.  Sometimes she manages more than one task at a time.   She adds a little sparkle to every part of Tuscarora this year—including this staff blog.   Can you find her sparlkier words?

IMG_1715                                                                         Emily came during the late-July hectic rush and has valiantly stepped up to be trained in everything, everywhere.    She wore her official St. Olaf swim team suit, which might have helped her win the Tuscarora Triathlon swimming portion.  Which she did, and believe me, there was some stiff competition this year.  Real stiff.

IMG_1731Daniel has a ROCKing reputation.  He takes the tradition of packing rocks in unattended staff  packs…very seriously.   He also rocked “Train Train” with Jerry Vandiver this year.  It was awesome.IMG_1633

IMG_1713My parents, Sheldon and Jane have been here a good portion of this summer.    They work really hard around here, cooking, and wiring, and painting and Sikkensing, and fixing chairs and repairing broken widows.  Their biggest contribution is reminding us that, in the end, everything really will be alright.  And guess what?  It is.

IMG_1579My nephew Tommy is resident volunteer and blueberry picking philosopher.   He repairs kevlars, paints the awkward places and fixes tricky things.  He also is always game to go picking with me after hours, and I love our chats.  My heart slows down in the  patch in a different way than it does any other part of the day —and a great memory of my summer will be of Tom calling through the patch  “Milk and Honey”—when he finds a hot spot.

When people of our generation say  “kids these days just don’t know how to work” Andy and I  must fiercely disagree.  Instead we have stories of  young people who not only work for us, they throw their hearts and souls into this place.  We wouldn’t be Tuscarora without them, that’s for sure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Savoring Life

I went for a walk yesterday morning.   It was about 40 degrees, so the fog was on everything, but lifting in the sunrise.  I don’t know how we got so lucky to have September weather the first week in August, but it’s golden.

My heart and head were both swelling, with the details of the day, and with the enormousness of life.  Usually they don’t both hit at the same time.  But on this particular morning they did.

And in the afternoon, a worn out young man trudged up the outfitting steps.  I knew he was coming back early, I had already spoken with a deputy.

Because I’m a mom, I opened my arms to him, and ….probably because  I am  a mom, he stepped into them and started to sob.  I think I could feel the grieving brother’s heart breaking right through his chest.

In another story–one of our Gunflint Trail neighbors who has been picking blueberries around here all his life, went out a week ago, and hasn’t come back.  His truck, parked in his favorite picking spot, is still the only clue.

You know, usually, I’m all about figuring how to minimize risk, avoid death at all costs.   And while that’s a really good point (and I’ll continue to make it….remember, I am a mother to the core)…… that is not THE point.

Here I am on the periphery of all this grief, and it strikes me that the main point has to do with the way we live.  Those fine young men were in the boundary waters because they have always shared a profound love for this place.   And when I’m 82, I hope I still have the spunk and independence to drive my truck up to the BEST spot in the woods, and pick my own blueberries.

 As a witness to this incredible sadness,  I  feel a strange combination of melancholy and reverence which isn’t completely comfortable, but it does feel like my heart is running at full capacity.    I cannot control all of life and death.  It’s simpler than that.  I can look around me.  I can be kind.  I can be grateful for where I live, for who I’m with, and  vow to savor it all for this day.

Frost River Adventure

What do Tuscarora staff members do on their days off? Some of us go fishing; others sleep in or hike on a nearby trail or drive to Grand Marais for time on Lake Superior. And this past week four of us decided to spend two nights and a day off in the best way that I personally can imagine: exploring the lakes and rivers that make up our wilderness backyard. Elizabeth was pretty excited too:

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We decided on a Frost River loop, which started down our driveway at Cross River public access and took us south through Ham, Cross Bay, Long Island, and Frost Lake to the Frost River before turning back north through Mora, Crooked, and Gillis and taking us home through Round. We felt like the Lewis and Clark expedition as we paddled through this relatively remote area of the Boundary Waters.

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Soon after starting on Monday afternoon, we discovered that our equipment pack was a LOT heavier than we remembered packing it. Good thing Shelby’s brother Dan had remembered to slip in one of these rocks for us…they come in so handy out on trail.

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We camped at Long Island Lake our first night and woke up to sunshine, oatmeal, a gentle breeze, and syrup shots (we ended up making a little more than we needed and didn’t want to leave a trace!).

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Once we got to the Frost, it started feeling really Lewis-and-Clark-y. Anything could be waiting around each grassy bend of the river.

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Most often, it was a portage. We calculated that there were 36 portages on this particular trip. They were usually short and around beautiful rapids rushing from all of the recent rain.

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…but we also did encounter a little bit of mud:

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After a day of paddling, portaging, singing voyageur songs, and seeing new places, we found a great campsite on Gillis Lake. Swimming and jumping felt wonderful, and we slept very well that night. It was a perfect way to spend a day off, and we’re excited for our next one! – by Amy

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